I just finished reading an article on a blog about someone who looks back at childhood and years growing up in a time when there was no such thing as Aspergers. Now as an adult only now learning that I have AS and am an aspie, can I go back through the memories of my past and look at things through an aspie lens.
I am not many of the names people associated with me. I am not to blame for the way I thought, or did things, or felt. I was being me. I was far more free to be me as a young kid, but as I got older it got harder and harder to be me, as I had to struggle to conform more to be "normal"
I wish I could redo things sometimes, and know that I had AS and learned how I could be me more as I grew up...
Well, I have my aspie daughter to mentor and guide through life. It is so hard to keep myself from trying to get her to conform. It is only as I have been so stressed with trying to deal with her and understand her have I realized how much she is like me.
More thinking and reflecting and pondering my aspie life soon to come.
Touching.
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ReplyDeleteThanks for your feedback Rene and Guy. Writing is a way for me to express what is in my head and my heart.
ReplyDeleteI also used the words "Aspie lens" to describe that whole process of rewriting my personal history once I figured it out. It's like you have solved the whole mystery of your life, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteWell I don't know about the whole mystery, as there is still my wife and kids to figure out... ;). But yes, it is satisfying to understand why and how things happened in the past.
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